Sometimes you feel like there's only yourself
I feel so disorganized.
I'm always lazy and can't be bothered.
I'm sorry that I'm like that, but I can't help it.
I can't say that it's my nature, can I?
I absolutely abhor it.

Then, a lot of time I feel like crying out.
It's just one of those days where you lock the door and hide under your sheets and cry.
It's depressing, mind-boggling, confusing, frustrating.
You don't know what you're feeling or why you're like that.
But that's life.
You want to move away from life.
Run to somewhere far faraway and start afresh.
You want to leave behind your past.
You want to move to the country for the benefit of your inner nature.
The least you expect is just some bit of tranquility.
The mental healing for your broken.
And you have no other choice.